|by Angela Lambert|
June 19th, 2016; 12th Sunday in Ordinary Time
Gospel of Luke 9:18-24
Once when Jesus was praying by himself, and the disciples were with him, he asked them, “Who do the crowds say that I am?” They said in reply, “John the Baptist; others, Elijah; still others, ‘One of the ancient prophets has arisen.’” Then he said to them, “But who do you say that I am?” Peter said in reply, “The Christ of God.” He scolded them and directed them not to tell this to anyone. He said, “The Son of Man must suffer greatly and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests, and the scribes, and be killed and on the third day be raised.” Then he said to all, “If anyone wishes to come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it.”
Often we feel burdened by the frenetic pace of life, even the endless duties of Christian service for our loved ones. We can easily feel that we do not have time to “just sit and pray.” As a result we rationalize that our work is our prayer and God wants more from us than mere words. These thoughts carry quite a bit of merit given their truth. Nevertheless, they do not abnegate our responsibility to spend time alone with God. Who could really say he or she has more work to do than the Son of God did during His time on earth? Who of us can dare say our service cannot wait while we pray alone with God but Christ’s could? Even Mother Teresa, known for her tireless works of charity, spent several hours in prayer every morning before beginning her service for the poorest of the poor. Angelo Comastri, Archbishop of Loreto, attested to her insistence on the necessity of prayer first, describing his encounter with her in this way:
|“She looked at me with two clear and piercing eyes. Then she asked me: «How many hours do you pray a day?» I was surprised by such a question and tried to defend myself by saying: «Mother, I expected you to speak about charity, to invite me to love the poor more. Why do you ask me how many hours I pray?» Mother Teresa took my hands and held them tightly in her own as if she wanted to pass on to me what she had in her heart; then she told me in confidence: «My child, without God we are too poor to be able to help the poor! Remember: I am only a poor woman who prays. When I pray, God puts His Love into my heart and so I can love the poor. By praying!” http://www.vatican.va/jubilee_2000/magazine/documents/ju_mag_01091997_p-18_en.html|
Time alone with God, especially time spent in silent contemplation or meditation may feel like you are doing nothing whereas in truth an incredible amount is being accomplished in the depths of your soul by God. In prayer, God fills our souls supernaturally with grace which enables us to know, love, and serve Him in ways we could not without this aid. For instance, those who had encountered Christ but had not spent time alone with Him like the apostles, had fairly good guesses about Christ’s identity, nevertheless they were wrong. Peter, however, having dedicated Himself to following Christ and remaining near to Him, was enabled by the Holy Spirit to correctly determine the truth about Jesus.
Moreover, when spending time alone with Christ in silence, He reveals more of Himself to us as well as His mission for us. After Peter perceived Jesus as the “Christ,” which means “Anointed One,” referring to the long awaited Messiah or “Son of Man” from earlier prophecies, Jesus next revealed the Christ would suffer, die, and be raised to life. This would not have been the kind of glory the apostles were expecting from their leader. Without grace, they must have questioned why they chose to follow someone who predicted He would seemingly fail in such a painful way. He also promised a resurrection but this too would be hard to put in one’s trust without grace. If that weren’t enough, Jesus went on to disclose an even harder truth: “If anyone wishes to come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.” Self-denial? Intense suffering? No marketing agent would put that on a billboard!
We can only make that kind of sacrifice aided by grace to trust that our Lord who suffered, died, and was raised to eternal life in Heaven, will raise us to eternal glory with Him if we endure the suffering and death to our worldly ambitions and sinful attachments on earth. You only live once so the risk is big. If Heaven isn’t for real, you won’t have a second chance at the pleasures or the fame the world has to offer. Time alone with Christ must be a necessity for disciples. Who do some secular people say Christ is? A crutch for the weak, a glorified imaginary friend, an old superstition. Who do disciples of Christ discover He is? A trusted friend, a vigilant protector, a source of peace, a spring of joy.
In time alone with the one we love, Christ gifts us with the faith, hope, and love necessary to believe and act on His admonition: “For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it.” For example, when in prayer, I felt Jesus call me to the vocation of motherhood, it took some grace and adjustment. I was young and had more ambitious ideas of how to serve the Lord. In time alone with Him at adoration however, He revealed to me that I had made some good guesses about the Christian life, but they were still very tainted by a worldly lens. In time I came to see from His perspective. I came to have faith but next I needed the hope and love to act on this call, which He provided through more time spent with Him. I spent my 20’s at home raising my three kids, while my worldly peers pursued careers, partied, and travelled. From a secular view, I had “no life”. Sometimes, it even felt like that. However, I had posted on my refrigerator John 15:13 “Greater love has no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” When tempted by the worldly lens that I had wasted my talents, I would spend time in prayer. Without fail, I would walk away each time with the view of the greatness of my mission as a disciple and I felt unworthy of such an honor. 15 years later, I can see concrete examples of how in losing my life Christ saved it. I can’t articulate the work He has done in my soul through my experience as a mother and my time alone with Christ in the home with my kids for 10 years. I’m not saying that is His will for everyone. It was however His will for me and in retrospect I can see why. When I had finally become truly comfortable with my mission at home (and even homeschooling!) I was called to go out of the home, enroll my kids in school, and be a teacher again. When this became absolutely clear I cried uncontrollably for an hour. What had begun as a sacrifice became a sacrifice to surrender. Christ blessed me however through ways only He can and through His Mystical Body, with the opportunity for all of my kids to attend the school at which I teach so we could still be together in some way during the day. I still rely on Christ to provide the faith, courage, and love to choose His will over the immediate visible rewards that come from my will and already I am seeing the fruits of His next call.
Our utilitarian culture measures worth by achievement. Love however simply desires connection and time together. Love bears fruits of good works, but its greatest joy is simply enjoying the nearness and attention of the beloved. You are Christ’s beloved. Your love should bear fruit of loving works, but Jesus’ greatest joy is time spent near Him, enjoying His presence. As Mother Teresa advised, spend time alone with the Lord, and He will pour the love you need in your heart to carry your cross. Paradoxically, you may find your cross to be your greatest blessing and that in losing your life for the Lord, it will be saved.
- Consider how much time you spend alone with Christ.
- What keeps you from making time for silent prayer and listening?
- How has silent prayer with the Lord deepened your faith?
- Consider the paradox that no matter how busy we are, if we make time for Christ somehow everything else still gets done.
- With whom do you enjoy spending time together? Do you take joy in his or her presence even if nothing is being “accomplished”? Do you know and love each other more deeply as a result?
- If you have teens, consider the time you spend driving in the car. Often that space of time where you are simply alone in the quiet of the vehicle is when they open up about what’s on their minds or in their hearts. What is it about a dedicated space of time that cannot be interrupted by tasks that opens people up to one another?
- Consider how this relates to our relationship with the Lord. How many of us encounter Him during times when we have nowhere else we could go? What if we simply carved out that time intentionally each day?
- How has Christ deepened your faith, strengthened your trust, and made you more loving because of your relationship with Him?
- Have you ever “died to something” in your life only to find that in fact Christ liberated you through it? Have you given something only to find you were given more in return?
- What might Christ be asking you to surrender today? How might Christ value your contributions more than you do? Pray for Him to reveal His view of your life and purify your own lens.
Make a Resolution (Practical Application):
- Spend an additional 15 minutes a day this week alone with Jesus.
- Visit Jesus at adoration one time this week.
- Read about Christ in the Gospels or a spiritual book. One suggestion would be “Jesus of Nazareth” by Pope Benedict XVI.
- Take 5 minutes for silent prayer a day.
- Listen to Christian music once a day – while driving, walking, getting ready etc.
- Listen to the song “How He Loves Us” by David Crowder Band
~ Written by Angela Lambert © 2016
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